One of my biggest inner obstacles is dealing with depression. Before I was diagnosed, every day was a struggle…I was fighting a battle I didn’t even know I was in. As time has gone on, I’ve learned how to identify and deal with the episodes, and am much, much healthier mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
But that doesn’t mean the waves don’t come. Or that the struggle is over.
In more recent months, the depression episodes have been stronger. Darker. Longer. More regular and habitual. Likely timed to my hormonal cycle, and maybe even due to a change in my diet. Whatever the reason, depression remains a reality in my life.
As a light worker, my shadows can be just as strong. And my most recent depression descents have been some of the strongest. Imagine that sunken place in Get Out, except there’s no screen, and it’s not hypnosis…it’s the work of your own mind. That’s a horror many of us live day-to-day. And sometimes, we can’t get out.
But I’ve been blessed so far to always come up, to come back to the light. And for that I’m grateful. I’m grateful for all the loving people in my life, the Yoga and Self care role models and dear friends and beings of light and learning who help keep my own flame lit. I’m taking this moment to express my gratitude, to recognize this blessing, because in that dark, sunken place, it’s hard to see…hard to feel…hard to acknowledge the love that permeates my life.
So I figure if I say it now, it’ll help me to remember it in the future when I really need to. Fortunately, there’s far too many people to tag (I’d hate to leave someone out and hurt their feelings). So I trust that Spirit will connect, and the ones that I’m talking to, that I’m thinking of, do indeed know it.
Thank you, and I love you.