Throughout my life I was often told not to say certain things and not to express certain feelings. I was implicitly and explicitly taught to keep my thoughts to myself, lest my sharing be upsetting to others.
Fast forward to adulthood and these “lessons” affected my interpersonal relationships. I’d become afraid that my truths would hurt other people, so I’d bury them and be silent. But in doing so, I became destructive to my Self. The more of my Self that I buried, the more of my Self I lost. Not only was I doing a disservice to me, but I was also doing a disservice to others by not allowing my authentic Self, my full feelings and thoughts, to be seen and heard.
I’ve grown and realized that my power lies, in part, in my freedom to be and express all of me. And that includes speaking my truths and baring my heart to others. And if doing so is hurtful and upsetting, it’s okay, because I also know that my expressions are done in love and light, and that people who truly love and value one another can get past the hurt to a place of peace and understanding.
I continue to work hard at my freedom of expression, as damaging life experiences always threaten to pull me back to a place of hiding and burying my truths. But I like being in the light, being in the open, being seen for who I am as much as possible. And that pushes me forward in this constant journey of Self growth.
Be well, spirits.